Tuesday, April 14, 2009

rose's birthday ^^

Today is rose de birthday.We decided to celebrate her birthday at jusco.
We will treat her secret recipe since she never eat secret de cake before.Actually we decided to go at 6 but tat van driver din cum...(geram).So i call three taxi to send 11 of us to jusco.We departure at 7 something.Reach there all of us already very hungry till wan faint le.
We really eat a lot today...so scary...eat full till almost cannot walk liao...so happy lo...can eat so many but the money...(fly away le)...so sad...money,money,money...can u cum to me right now???I need u so much.
Haiz...today quite down de...van uncle din cum and my friends need to wait for about 1 hour...hate tat uncle...then we took others de taxi and they din hav taxi...They hav to wait for second round...Then....Haiz...Dun wan talk le.Actually these all are only small things only...
Maybe i din hav tian fen...do everything also cannot de...
Do everything will giv trouble to others....Wat can I do?I think nothing,everything tat i do is nothing...Really nothing....I dun wan be like this but i cant control it...I really hate myself...I really 成事不足,败事有余。。。i hate myself...
Thursday i wan go bac le...A bit happy lo..I already long time din see my family le...
At last,i wan to wish my friend,ROSE...HAPPY BIRTHDAY....WISH ALL UR DREAMS CUM TRUE....

Monday, April 6, 2009

~解脱~

终于,我解脱了。。我开心咯。也觉得松了一口气。
跟他,结束了。。。好笑的是我一点伤心的感觉都没有,反而觉得包袱没有了。现在轻松多了,压力也没有了。那种感觉没有了,可能过去的感情消失了就再也不能回来了。心,找不回了。以前,真的喜欢过。现在对他只有朋友之情,单纯的朋友。但不知为什么,有时觉得自己亏待了他,因为从没有好好对待过他。以后应该再也没有机会了,因为再也不可能有回那种感觉。有时我甚至连朋友也不想跟他做。不想跟他有一丁点儿的关系。对不起。。。
跟繁忙的课业,结束了。唉。。。这是不是代表跟他们可以像回以前一样了呢?可是心里始终是一根刺的。在怎样也不能像以前一样了。还是那一句,那种感觉没有了。看到了也是处于非常尴尬的处境。
以前,我真的很想读现在读的课程的。但是最近我后悔了。不知什么原因,我在这里过得不是怎么的好。我真的不喜欢。这里的人好复杂,我不喜欢复杂的人,真的不喜欢!多么希望每一个人都是单纯的,但我了解这是不可能的。如果世界上只有单纯的人,那这世界就没有色彩了。没有可多姿多彩的生活,我们要怎样过呢?会无聊?会烦闷?这是肯定的。所以我只能接受,有不同性格的人的事实。这些发生的事只会让我更加地成长。
朋友,多就没有联络了?真得很久了。
家里,多就没有回去了?好像很久了。应该有两个礼拜了吧?两个礼拜对于我来说真的很长,在接下来的几个礼拜又不能回家。。。唉~我真的想家了。。。