Saturday, September 12, 2009

Hard...Hard...Hard

It's hard to find someone that know us.Maybe until the moment u breath your last breath, you din have even one that know you. And also when we ourselves know someone very well, the person may not know us too. It's too sad. Maybe you will do every good for he or she but he or she do not know how to appreciate or they do not know what you have do for them. Then they will keep on do something that hurt you. But they themselves do not know they had hurt you. This is not their fault, but this is whose fault? Your fault? Maybe you think that you din do the wrong things but what others think i dunno la. It's too difficult to be a good person. But i have try to be better, at least i tried before. Maybe it cannot been seen clearly, but i dun care about others. I just care about myself.
It's hard also to find someone that i can believe. People that i believe i think only two to three person. But sometimes i really hope that people i believe will not betray me. If not, i dunno what i will do lo. This few days, i have went through many things. I know that someone can also hide themselves inside them. Where? I really don't know. They will not express their feelings on their face. But this is my bad place. I express everything out. I think it's difficult to find someone that do not know me at all. But i like to express my feeling on the face compare to hide myself. I think the one who always hide themselves will become crazy one day. It's also too hypocritical!!! I hate people like that. Haiz.. But no one can be perfect. They will have their own bad place. Like me. So, it's ok le. I will just pretend know nothing.
People in this world is too hypocritical. They so fake. They just make me look down at them. But now i know something le. Although i out of sorts with someone, i will also talk to them. But after a while i ok le. I will not angry them le. I know how to control my temper. But if one day if i can't control it, i think i will explode. That time...haha...dunno what will happen liao.
Just hope she dun always scold me. Sometime it's hurt. Then i will become not so happy le. Can scold me, but dun always. And also please believe me sometimes and trust me more. Haiz...Wat i say is real de, never lie lo.